Blog blog

Im blogging now because i have to. WEll i feel obligued to... so heres my blog!
Hmm. iv got 5 hours of play prac today D:

Graphics Tablet

I hope you can read this!!! Its me with my graphics tablet :D

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I feel drunk today. Or high. Or an odd combination of both. I havent been noticing when someones talking to me and earlier when Rob was poking me i didnt even notice. also i dont know how good it is to be shaking like an old person :) ah well. Um...good thing about today?? argh i dunno.

The new Moses Mabida stadium was a fucking waste of money. To be honest its beautiful and everything (i went up in the funny cable car thing to see whats so great about it), and although i dont give a shit about mankind i still think its wrong to waste all that money on sport when theres millions starving. and what about the starving animals?? THats what im really bothered about. Speaking of which, if those assholes think its okay to slaughter innocent animals before each game, i dont see why i cant take a nice box of matches and a machine gun and burn down the stadium while shooting the fucking idiots who think that animal cruelty is a game.

This is my giant FUCK YOU to all those stupid selfish idiots out there who believe they are more important than animals. Humans sin permanently. Hell, i sin every day. I have never met an animal who has sinned in the way us humans have, so why the fuck should they have to suffer? Why should we have to prove our position in the food chain? I would rather watch a hundred human bodies burn than see one selfish cruel idiot slit the throat of an innocent bull. Fuck you South Africa. Fuck you and your selfishness.

Hicups

what REALLY pisses me off about life is getting hic ups. Like what the hell. ITs the third time today aaaargh! And i havent even eaten or drunken anything before getting them sigh :) sometimes things just refuse to go your way aaah well. ITs just hic ups geez not like ima get killed or anything, im just in a sooper wierd mood...
So deal with it imaginary blog followers. I love talking to cyber space, because cyber space understands!

My very own fml moment

Today i was playing a song i wrote specialy for my boyfriend on the piano. I have been working on this piece for ages, like a few years.. WHen i finished playing i turned around and saw him fast asleep with his headphones in his ears listening to very loud death metal. Fml sad :)

Ses meh

How lame. was. this. day.
I woke up feeling crap. I walked to school feeling crap. I got to school and felt crap. I went to class and felt crap. I went to break and felt crap. I got home and it was a little bit better but ive got this awful deep feeling that theres something missing, and the worst part is that i have no idea what it could possibly be. Its something more than anything human. Its negative emotion. Almost like a black hole which consists of negative space, but rather its negative emotion. So basically im a gigantic negative emotioned black hole and although i may absorb information and affection, instead of using it for good i just suck it up and it is transported somewhere unknown. How depressing is that?? Ooooh well. Heres a picture for my happiness pledge.

Peace

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┌ ┴─┴─┐-┘─┘ ●●Peace●●
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Peace is a vital lesson we all need to learn...so learn it bitches! I dont feel like play practice today. But i guess i should go!! But still!

Write love on your arms...

Its an important cause to me-helping stop teen suicide and depression, heres my pics from the day :)

Trust

It’s amazing how you can expect something for years and then can be proved so greatly wrong. When the back of your mind starts screaming “tell them now or it will never happen, this is your chance, and you’ll regret it if you don’t take a risk”. When you’re afraid of admitting weakness in order to save someone else the burden of your troubles and when you finally let go of your feelings, you find understanding and comfort rather than harshness and anger. You find a sort of forgiveness, even though what you had done had harmed no one but yourself. It’s good to admit your weaknesses. No matter how insane you may think they are. Often you’ll be pleasantly surprised by a reaction, and you’ll gain trust towards the person you confided in. Trust is a vital aspect of humanity, as I have learnt recently. You must not hand out your trust, but you must ensure that you do not deprive those who are worthy of it either. Hold back your trust for as long as you need to, but learn that it is important to trust in order to learn. For even if the trust is destroyed, you would have walked out a stronger, wiser person.

Ha! Sweet revenge.

HA! In your face kyle! Yes! After months and months and months of trying to get your attention and trying to win you back as a friend i finally give up! Whoop im proud of myself. and even more proud because of the fact that you were bummed all day-it just shows, you dont know what youve got til its gone :)

So my good thing of the day is my ability to finally give in. and expect results. more updates soon i hope :)

Gawsh slowness

One thing that bugs me more than anything else is a slow computer. i cant STAND it grr. well im on a school pc right now blogging... my resolution.
Hummmmmm i guess my friends are cool. (im saying that in such an unsure way so that if any of them come up behind me and try to talk to me theyll be offended- blogging in serious business and i do not wish to be disturbed :)) so ya. there, happy? i blogged about something positive whoop go me!

I woke up with a cockroach crawling all over me the other night. that was deeply unsettling as i dont enjoy having my arm being used as a freeway for creepy little creatures with long antennas who have survived everything for billions and billions of years :) meh.

I never quite know what to write on these things. Im finished my work. Which is honestly kinda lame because i hate having nothing to do- especially when im extremely uninspired. 5 minutes left to share my boring thoughts with the world!

The funniest thing ever is the fact that i only have one follower on this thing :) and that is my good old friend Steve-dear. The name Steve is not good enough on its own so i added and - and a "dear" to the end of it just to make life a bit more interesting. When typing that sentence, i innitially typed "steve-dead" so steve-dear my darling steve-dead, this is dedicated to you.

Claire is stupid. Shes been trying to access my blog for freakign years but theres no ways in hell shell ever find it because i have a cool alias.

u\o reseviouerrr!

SIGH!

I guess my bad luck is rather funny. when youve waited and waited patiently for months...
and then you decide to give yourself a break and not wait anymore...
and then while youre not waiting what you had previously been waiting for happens within 5 minutes.......
Now THAT is bad luck :D but rather helerious bad luck if i may say so myself!
ou resevoir!!
xx

Today is a new start!

Today i am going to blog about good things, not bad things. Because i just read back on my blog and im like a phychotic emo (who cant spell to save her life) So here i go. A list of my favourite things:
1. Black comedy- nomatter how much homework you have, it can always wait when theres black comedy on. My favourite is (oh crap i cant remember, its about an old lady that kills people) and hot fuzz
2. Art- theres nothing better than painting things all over my cupboards. I know itll be impossible to get it off when we sell the house, but i dont care. thats the buyers problem
3. Tea- theres nothing better than a hot cup of tea after a horrible day. sometimes i even come home early so that i can have tea :)
4. These people..

well my aim for now is to blog nicely once a day, and to add one thing i like about this world every day (hippie hippie i know i know)

Lost.

Ive lost my appetite.
I lie awake at night.
I have lost my social skills.
I dont enjoy the usual activities.
I find it impossible to read.
I cant handle noise.
When a windows not open i freak out.
I sit on my own in class because i dont like being talked to.
I am such a freaking lost cause its scary.