Paris at night

Im very sad tonight. I just want to crawl up into a ball and dissapear ): Well, i decided that theres nothing more pathetic than a short teenage girl moping around with messy hair and her ipod. So I decided to cheer myself up.

My lifelong dream has always been to go to Paris. Yes it may be clique, but since I was a tiny little thing its always been what I wanted to do. So i googled paris, and up came the option of Paris at night. Nothing can take my breath away quite like the sight of the most beautiful place in earth lit up. Im not one to get over emotional but this picture took my breath away.

soooo...

1. I cant really be such a crap person can I?
2. I kept asking him why he was so sad and he just shouted at me for irritating him so i walked away.
3. I went back to him to say sorry for walking away and to give him a hug and tell him i loved him and i pulled him aside to talk to him and he told me to leave him alone and go away
4. All we ever do is sit around in silence because he refuses to talk to me about anything
5. When i talk, he asks for space. When i dont talk he gets angry at me for ignoring him.
6. How am i supposed to win?
7. What am i supposed to do about this? What would my readers do?
8. Is this emotional abuse?

5 reasons why im so fucking bummed!!!

1. My boyfriends dad recently died of cancer and so hes permanently down and that makes me sad
2. i just failed a maths test when i usually get A's and my boyfriend didnt even try and cheer me up, he just told me to concentrate more
3. Ive been put on these new drops for insomnia, high blood pressure, anxiety and depression and they prevent me from crying when i need to and keep me up all night
4. my friend slept with her boyfriend of 3 weeks... (slut!!!) and shes missed her period...
5. Dan wants to kill himself and he wont stop saying it.