5 things i dont like about people

Heres a nice sweet list of things i hate about people ^^

1. Back stabbers... you know, the ones who pretend to be your friend then spill your secrets to the world?
2. Being stuck up Theres just no pleasing some people! Like my parents... when i try do something nice often it ends in screaming
3. No respect Like the immature guys at my school... they think that looking up your skirt when you go up the stairs is just sooo acceptable. Dick heads. And girls! Geez girls... when someone has a girlfriend, dont try and steal the guy, just wait until she screws up with him and he leaves her!
4. Jocks, Skanks and Douschs. Im sure a lot of you blog nerds can relate to these scum of the earth idiots. you know the ones who think that just because they look good and eat nothing but a grape for their main course they rule the world. Cant wait to see them come to me for a job sometime in the future.
5. heartbreakers. enough said ;(

list of things to do these holidays

well its the summer holidays so i decided to make a list of things i wouldnt usually do due to laziness, lack of opportunity or just plain not brave enoughness (its a word i swear! ^^) so here it is... hopefully ill get them done this next month (: wish me luckyness

be there for danny when he needs me (always do)

have a kiss under the mistletoe (done)

have my midnight new years kiss

have girly sleepovers (done)

have a beach date

go to a massive kick ass party

go out for a day underwearless (done ^^)

do something life threatening

get my new perfume

not eat chocolate.... for a week

write a new song

camp on the balcony

stay under water for two minutes

not dye of underwaternessocity

dance at least once a day

work and earn money (worked... never earned money!)

go wedding ring shopping (done)

get a light saber

watch the sun set with dan

go to a concert (done)

watch the new twilight movie

get very badly hurt and use it to my advantage

go skinny dipping with somebody

hug a sheep

finish kou jong on the hardest level

prank call jamie

make something i can wear

go out dressed totally wack

dye my hair

shower with megs (done!!!??!!)

Freedom <3

had a very free feeling day... probaly cus i turned off my phone so i had no phone calls or smses or anything. all i did today was paint, draw, write, run and swim. so it was basically just embracing my creative side... was very nice. i kept myself so busy that i forgot to eat lol so thats probaly not the best thing but ill have a nice dinner to make up for it ^^

Gawsh christmas is so soon and i didnt even realise... how crazy is this? Iv got a week and iv hardly even shopped =O

Anyways, i has to go bye bye fellow bloggeries ^^

Nawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwse hair

Waaaa... My best friendaling in the entire world just smsed me and said shes moving schools ... So bumming. No more bathroom dancing inbetween classes, irritating teachers, scaring fellow pupils or bunking pe... sigh ='( so unfair. oh wells.. we is working at the vet on monday so im a slightly happy pandaroo about that ^^

Blog three of today

This blog is yet another thing i hate about myself example. Except with a twist. its more "reasons why i hate things about these other people" here goes.

JODI: Im really really jealous of you as a person. Everybody loves you and everybody wants to be your friend. why cant i just be more like you? I dont like you because you made a move on the person that means the most to me. the one i love the most in the entire world. and i guess im just scared that hes going to realise how much better a person you are than me and leave me for you.
JAMES: The reason i dont like you is that you dont like me because i dont get on with some of your friends. which i dont really think is really fair since it doesnt achually involve you but i guess i mainly get upset because nomatter what, dan always stands up for you. and i guess i wish he'd feel the same about me.
JESS: You guys have been friends your entire lives.im scared that the letter you wrote to dan is going to get to him and hell see me for what i really am.. why im upset is because iv managed to convince myself that you are right about all the stuff you wrote. about him being so happy with me and all that. because i kinda feel like its true.
Repented.

18 Things i hate about myself

After going through things i hate about myself in my head and just keeping there for the last fifteen and a half years, ive decided to write a list.

1) ANGER: i am an angry BITCH. Everything sets me off... i cant help it. when something upsets me i get really really angry (see the last blog entry) and freak out. which leads me to number two
2) FREAK OUTS: its all i do, doesnt matter who the person is or what theyve done to me (whether theyve done anything or not is beside the point) I just start screaming and crying. it isnt a tantrume, just a freak out
3) TRUST: now, the wierd thing about this one is that its not my boyfriend or anyone else i dont trust, its myself. I cant trust myself in certain possitions, or in many different possitions in fact. Like i cant trust myself to keep dan happe because of the first two items on this list.
4) SELFISHNESS: As dan so often tells me, im selfish. i guess he is right because sometimes i admittedly DO think of myself before everyone else... its usually when im angry.
5) SENSITIVITY: when someone says something a little bit harsh to me, often i throw it completely out of perspective and end up a tearful wreck on the floor. dying inside for some stupid reason
6) BITCHYNESS: When the above happens, from that moment onwards i am a complete and utter BITCH. and im not using that term lightly either.. if they talk to me ill shut them out and whenever someone brings them up i cant help but put in a little horrible comment.
7) STUBBORNNESS: When im fighting with someone, i can be really really stubborn. like sometimes even if something is my fault ill deny it and carry on fighting because im scared of admitting defeat, it just isnt in my nature. but this part of me isnt too bad because sometimes i can give in and appologise. i just need to do it more often.
8) FORGIVE BUT NEVER FORGET: when someone does me wrong, i get really angry. if that person really means a lot to me, i forgive them instantly for whatever theyve done as long as they are sincerely sorry about it. But the thing is that even though Iv forgiven them, often i have a problem with acchually getting over what theyve done or said. even though sometimes i have no problem with this. it depends on what the person says or does.
9) DRAMA: im a total drama queen. Often its not even intentional but it just kinda comes to me. especially when fighting with dan, we are both very dramatic as we scream hurtful things at eachother.
10) OVER THINKING: Heres the scenario... Someone says something small that doesnt really mean much. But in my mind i twist it and turn it and dont stop thinking about it until i throw myself into a downward spiral and just think far too much about it until i upset myself to the point of suicidalness.
11) GULLIABLE: I can be really gulliable sometimes, believing people and their lies. which often results in me getting hurt from my own stupidity
12) LOVE: Most people wouldnt consider this a fault, but sometimes i do. when i develope a good relationship with people, i love them and care about them so much that when they grow or change or when its time to move on i cant. i just feel left behind and neglected.
13) GRUDGES: After all the anger and upset, the grudge gets held. Everything you say can and definately will be used against you with me
14) FEAR: im a complete wuss. and i dont mean with the dark and things like that, im not scared of the dark. This has two meanings. the first is my fear of myself and the second is the fear for the people close to me's lives. What i mean by the fear of myself is basically the same as what i put under trust. im scared of myself screwing up as i seem to do so often. By fear of those important to me's lives is pretty straight forward i think. its basicaly why i freak out when Dan goes out with his friends or anything like that. im just worried about him. its NOT that i dont trust him... i do. im just scared.
15) NEGATIVITY: well, i used to be pretty possitive. like i believed in my fairytale and finding prince charming and the fact that there are such things as happy endings. but iv been hurt enough times to flip my perspective of that matter around 180'. I dont like believing in the white horse and being saved from an evil demon or whatever. because i have far too many demons to be saved from and i cant expect any guy to be able to fight them all away, though it would mean the world to me.
16) GUILT: story of my life. i do something wrong, i realise it and i never EVER forgive myself... Hence this list. i can let go of things that others do to me but i cant find it within me to forgive the one person im supposed to care the most for... me.
17) KEEPING UP: this is one thing iv never been able to do. everyone around me grows and learns things and moves upwards while i always feel like iv achually just been left behind. its so wierd and i never know how to grow in my own way yet hold onto the people i love
18) DEPRESSION: I am exhuasted from bashing myself down now so this is my last one for today. This developes from all of the above combined together... so yeah. gonna go lie down or something.

**MORE COMING SOON IF YOURE INTERESTED**

ASSHOLES!!!

This is my angry blog. my "i dont give a fuck what you idiot think of me im just gonna say exactly what i feel about you right here and hope you somehow stumble over this and get the picture that its you but wont be able to pick a fight with me because youll have no evidence that this is me" blog. so here i go

JODI: You are a hoe. Hence the reason i have renamed you... "hoe-di" This is a nice compilation of what you are (a hoe) and what id like you to do (Die).
JAMES: Hide behind your religion however much you like, but faking being a good person is not going to get you into heaven you dousch. My boyfriend is your best friend and the least you can do is pretend to like me for his sake. Just because i dont get on with hoe-di (since she betrayed my trust and tried to steal my boyfriend) doesnt mean you can be a dick to me and hate you. this doesnt involve you and your stupid little comments, since, guess what? YOU ARE AN IDIOT! yes , people may pretend to like you but that only because if they dont, youll judge them. so take your stupid little comments and shove them up that stupid contradicting hypocritical ass hole of yours and get the fuck out of my life.
JESS: Oh if only everyone was as perfect as you... haha please. i think i just threw up a little in my mouth. THis little slut here wrote my boyfriend a very sweet little note when we got back together... all about how happy he was without me and how he made a mistake getting back with me. and all he did was defend her... wow.. how nice.

Thus ending this hours rant. thank you