Crap day

Today was really really really crap

the reason for todays crapiocity was basically everything... started with me doing my usual wake up thinking "i dont wanna live today", took my usual shower, had tea and went to school. THen we had to do a stupid test thing in the hall and i started chocking and then got a nose bleed. at least i got out of sitting in there and i ended up bunking the rest of the test thing sitting in the bathroom.

I just want dan and me to be happy like we were before everything happened, i guess this is the part where i have to explain what happened between us... Well we had been dating for a year, two months and nine days (yes, i counted) and i thought everything was perfect... i was happy and i was pretty sure that he was too. Until he broke up with me. twice... well yeah. then a month later he wanted me back and even after so long of being soooo depressed i decided to take him back. But i made him wait of course. until his birthday which is when i told him i wanted to get back together. but today he told me all of the reasons why he broke it off... and thinking back they were all true. (total confidence crusher but i dont matter with this) and so theres a lot im gonna have to change if i want to make this work. He says i must just be myself but who the fuck am i? seriously i feel so worthless. i dont even know what makes me happy anymore.